Two days ago marked one year since the first day we brought Kian home from the hospital. That was such an amazing day! Our hearts were bursting with happiness, excitement and love! We were finally able to show Kian his home and care for him on our own.

Never in a million years would I have thought that a year later we would be where we are at. Though I am grateful that we didn't know where we would be in a year. We were able to live every day full of hope that Kian would be with us for one more day, day after day. Because every single day with your baby is a blessing; whether it's for a day, a month, a year or 50 years.

In two days will mark four months since Kian earned his angel wings. Four months, it's so hard to believe. We have been told that time heals. For us time doesn't heal, doesn't make anything easier. Time just makes everything different. That is where we are at. We are figuring out how to live our lives differently than we ever expected we would have to.

We will always miss and love Kian. We will never be complete without him in our lives. But we will put one foot in front of the other and trust in God's plan for our lives.

But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)